Dear Jesus, I'm sorry I called you a crock of s***. I'm just not very good at this. Praying. Talking to someone who isn't there. Or maybe you are there, but you just don't care anymore. Is that it?
Father, if I had sex with a man, would it make me gay? I mean, you know, if I wasn't attracted to him or anything, and I just had sex with him. Would it make me gay?
The fact that I'm unhappy is not the point at all! The fact that I can't stand myself... now that... that's what I'm afraid of. I don't like this room.